Dead or Alive?
Somewhere between 1-2 months ago, I was walking back home quite dejected, frustrated, & even angry about several things. I said to myself in my head, "I'm done. I give up. I'm going to just quit living for any dreams or anything for myself & I'm going to live to make sure my children have their chances. I'll live for them only now."
But I got about halfway through the first sentence of thought before I was convicted by the Spirit inside of me. Clear as day the thought came, "weren't you supposed to do that a long time ago, but for Jesus?" I was basically saying, "I'm going to die to myself & live for my children." But supposedly, I died to myself 10 years ago & Christ became my life.
Perhaps, that's the reason for so much frustration...I'm too much alive. A dead man has no dreams or expectations or outcomes to long for. And to live for good things, even our children, is far too less a thing than living for Christ. And the good news? Dying to self & living for Christ allows us to find our lives & actually live, & it is to much greater advantage to our children, neighbors, & nations around us to live in Christ than if we strove to live for them!
But I got about halfway through the first sentence of thought before I was convicted by the Spirit inside of me. Clear as day the thought came, "weren't you supposed to do that a long time ago, but for Jesus?" I was basically saying, "I'm going to die to myself & live for my children." But supposedly, I died to myself 10 years ago & Christ became my life.
Perhaps, that's the reason for so much frustration...I'm too much alive. A dead man has no dreams or expectations or outcomes to long for. And to live for good things, even our children, is far too less a thing than living for Christ. And the good news? Dying to self & living for Christ allows us to find our lives & actually live, & it is to much greater advantage to our children, neighbors, & nations around us to live in Christ than if we strove to live for them!
